2009-11-07T07:53:00.002+08:00

I hate it when I'm forced to race against time,
It's always faster than I am.

2009-10-29T21:37:00.000+08:00

Now I just wanna finish it, and do it well.

Traffic duty in the morning was rather fun. (: Hemant and I were like making observations of the people walking into school. We ended up linking everything to people being sad and stuff. Aha. Like there was this girl who was looking down the whole time while she was walking and she was walking really slowly, we insisted that she's depressed. "The trees don't look green anymore.. the sky doesn't seem blue anymore.." Started coming up with all the 'pathetic fallacy' crap. Quite obviously we were talking rubbish yeah?

Then some people jay-walked, we said they wanted to get knocked down. It was all in the name of fun, but still, it was rather hilarious. I must say many took things to their stride when the results were released though a minority still broke down in the end.

I must admit that Ms Zeenat helped us alot, in her own way, she cared. Although we got the "scariest" civics tutor, to me, it was nonetheless a blessing in disguise. She has been all along results-driven, emotions aside and totally rational. She said she wouldn't pretend like we did our best and console us. Instead, she told us straight in the face to not be emotional and remain objective. It's not end of the world afterall. This, I fully concur.

I've no clue how things will turn out but I'm gonna give it my best shot.

Something Mr Tan said dawned upon me and set me thinking during assembly. He said, many of us simply refuse or find it extremely difficult to change. Be it our study habits, lifestyle or whatsoever. Until we experience, in some point, what he termed as SEE ( Significant Emotional Experience ). Perhaps some sort of humiliation or major setback to hit you really hard and wake you up.

Then I thought about myself and wonder how much does it take to transform myself to fully commit to my goals. I realised I didn't have the answer. I wanna change, I need to. This is what the JC system can force me to do, partially why I insisted to remain in it. I'll need some time, the initial period ain't gonna be smooth. But I'll keep trying.

Friends, family, everybody, I'll need all the motivation I can ever have.

2009-10-28T23:23:00.001+08:00

Now, I've absolutely no idea what happened but my template screwed up and now my blogskin is ugly.

All the codes, everything, gone. Awesome.

2009-10-28T22:10:00.000+08:00

For some reasons, I'm starting this blog afresh. This time, typing properly. ( No doubt, it's gonna be a challenge, but I'll try! )

The final results would be out tomorrow and everyone is feeling damn uneasy now. Oh well, when we got our promos results, I even heard of some guy going suicidal and all. They called his parents and his mom went hysterical as well. So I can't really imagine what's to come tomorrow really.

I think like half the world is praying really hard now and the other half would most likely have decided to take an MC the next morning. Haha. Whatever it is, all the best people!

Everyone needs some space to rant